tare-musume

So i was bored one day and i made a Facebook art page.  Like all social media, i don't know in what way i will be using that site vs. the others, but time will tell!  Here is the page:

www.facebook.com/tareotome

Let's hope i can tear myself away from TMNT long enough to make art  :0~  Donatello you are adorable~~~~~~~

So, this month i think officially marks the 1 year anniversary of me suddenly getting a resurgence of Gears passion.  Say what you will about GoW:  Judgment, but i credit it with sparking my obsession w/ shipping Baird and Sam  @_____@ and finally devouring all the Karen Traviss novels.  In preparation for Judgment, i replayed Gears 2 and 3, and suddenly FEELS everywhere, wtf.  I searched the Internet for fanfiction, at first as a joke, because i don't normally care for fanfiction.  But then i realized some of it is really fuckin' good and fills a need/void that was created after replaying Gears 3    Whether or not it's healthy or rational, the release of the game and my emotional and vocational state coalesced to become something more than the sum of its parts.

I want to thank all those awesome fanfic writers, and all the people who have said such wondeful and touching things about my posts.  You put your passion out there for others to enjoy, and you are all such an inspiration.  Thank you for all your sweet, encouraging words.  It really means a lot to me and helps me continue with it.  Silly as it sounds, it gives me a sense of greater purpose, goals, and seeing that you enjoy it makes me so so happy.  Maybe i put such importance on this stuff because i was swimming in it all during my year of unemployment.  Seeing that some people enjoyed something i created out of a shared personal passion, however obscure and niche, was so uplifting and made me feel connected during a time when i was feeling the most depressed, lost, isolated, uncertain and adrift that i had in years.  Your comments made me happy to think i was still able to do something worthwhile.  Having such a sudden change for so long makes you feel like you're outside of the world and reality.  Beings as my brain is usually half in an alternate reality anyway, submerging myself into a familiar fantasy world reading the novels and fanfics was a relief and escape from my real life predicament  ^__^;  it sounds ridiculous but in a way i kind of related to the characters of that world, not knowing what the future holds, and just trying to do their best.

I don't know how long this "kick" will last.  I hope i'll still be doing this for a while yet.  It feels like it's been longer than a year since this all started for me.  Even if it doesn't last all that long, i will still appreciate everything for as long as it does last.  You helped me feel happier and useful and excited about things during my low point    Really, you have made me so happy.

I am SO EXCITED!  Seems that i need to make a journal entry about it if i'm going to continue the tradition of updating w/ major life events, and i consider this as such.  After pretty much exactly a year since Rhythm & Hues went bankrupt and the layoffs, being unemployed and depressed, with the help of some friends and determination i have succeeded in reinventing myself and FINALLY got another industry job!  I have a contract job at Industrial Light & Magic and have been there for about a month now, it is so great there!  ;____;

Not only that, i am working on one of my dream movies!  I can hardly believe my fortune!  I am finally once again a productive member of society!  I have purpose!  My liiiiiiiiiiife!!!